DID I MAKE A DIFFERENCE?

Well, yesterday we had our final meeting for the KG project. I was feeling a bit down yesterday and if I had been online... this entry would have been very different.

But today, I was greeted with a new energy. I met up with the power of change. Quoting from my friend's blog:

Some people become so used to their daily routine, they eventually succumb to it til the point where they can't accept or tolerate changes. One slight change can distraught them, leaving them feeling uneasy the whole day.

Is it healthy to lead such a life?

I can't bear routine.

So, I back-tracked my past few months. Yes, there were routines. There were meeting which I just loathed to attend, but I did go anyway. But at some points of those months, I felt alive doing what I did!

I began to love my job as a logistics guy... it felt wonderful! Those high-moments were really, really good! I did not feel what my friend is feeling now- the unbearable.

However, there is a down side.

Do you remember the days when I was not so happy? That's me not accepting change. The fact that the project will be coming to an end. I came to love my day-to-day meetings and work, being productive and such. I did succumb, but not in a bad manner. I held on to those thing that were so dear to me, so tightly and I didn't want to let go...

Then, I read this:

."Pain is a relatively objective, physical phenomenon; suffering is our psychological resistance to what happens. Events may create physical pain, but they do not in themselves create suffering. Resistance creates suffering. Stress happens when your mind resists what is...The only problem in your life is your mind's resistance to life as it unfolds."

- Dan Millman, 21st century philosopher from The Way of the Peaceful Warrior

I was resisting the change because I love what I did and I didn't want it to end. Yesterday, I still felt that way.

But today, I think change. I am liberated. So, I think I know how Phee Lip, our ex-project manager must have felt leaving this project for Singapore.

So, the bigger question comes. Did I make any difference to the project?

Yesterday I would have said, "I don't know."

Right now, I would say, "I did." Somehow or rather I did... to myself, to the people whom I have worked with, and everyone else I have come to meet and know.

Here's the dessert:

"The path of personal growth
leads upward,
through the gauntlet
of human experience
to the peaks of human potential.
On this journey we encounter twelve gateways.
Their purpose is evolution.
Their arena is everyday life.
Their secret is action.
And their time is now."

Dan Millman